It's been so long since I last wrote it. So much has changed. I don't even know where to begin. Hm..well to start off I am a single woman for the first time in my "college career" haha. It's a long story, but to sum it up Joel decided he didn't want to be with me anymore and ended things on the 29th of April. (yes my parents anniversary and what would have been our half anniversary)
It was extremely rough. Every time I feel like I miss him or I feel like being down I think back to April 30th. That day will by far be the saddest day of my life. I never knew that my body could produce so much water in just a mere span of twenty-four hours. By the time that first day ended I was dry. I couldn't cry anymore, my eye's hurt to keep them open, I didn't want to live anymore. I kept thinking I couldn't, wouldn't live without him. It's hard to have the person you trusted most, the person you "loved" for so long rip your heart from your chest and stomp on it.
Nearly a month later I still have my moments where I feel down and I miss Joel, but it's nothing compared to that first twenty-four hours. I realize now that I am better off without him and that I have accomplished so much that I never thought I would be able to do.
I've been spontaneous, adventurous, I've set goals and accomplished them, I've gone out clubbing, I've met guys and I've had a good time doing it. I didn't think I would be able to do any of this after what happened with Joel. It's good to know that a part of me keeps pushing to find myself and make the necessary improvements in order to reach my full potential.
One of the happiest day's of my life thus far occured last Saturday. In just over a week I set out to run my first 5k race. I trained for it, I did it and I dominated it! It was the most glorious feeling I've felt in a very long time.
So my fellow bloggers I may have been absent for awhile, but it's summer vacation and I have more than enough time to dedicate my inner most thoughts to you. I'm sorry for the absence, but I promise I'm not going anywhere anytime soon.
Until Next Time
Vicky
